Now I Understand How You Felt

Dear Missy Natasha,

Now I can see clearly.

Now I can see, just how lowly I am, compared to you.

Now I can understand, how heartbroken you were years ago.

Am I too late? Perhaps so.

Why did I woke up too late? I don't have the answer to that question.

Have I changed? Yes, I do have the answer for this question.

Slowly, revolutionizing myself to be better in every way.

Spiritually, mentally, physically, wholly.

It'll take some time, but I've already started to take the steps towards the end of the tunnel.

Whre the light is shining brightly.

Baby steps, some people call it.

But I'm moving on.

Sadly, I always think of the worst in anything that I venture into.

This attitude of mine will always conjure up the images and thoughts, that scares me the most.

Because of that, I am now scared.

My fingers are shaking.

My heart is beating erratically.

My stomach feels uneasy.

My eyes can't see clearly.

I fear rejection.

Yet, I'm trying to entreat the strength to face you.

To try to win you over again, and .....

Hoping to God it'll be the last, and it'll be something that I can be proud of for the rest of my life.

Something that I can tell to the kids how I ferociously fought to win you again.

Later,
AY_Natasha.